What is the aim of my life ??

Why does it always happen that this question is never answered fully ?? I always think that something is the aim of my life and when i reach there, this question pops up again.

Does it suggests that whatever we think is our aim, is not actually our aim. Its just a diversion from something which is cleverly planned to be always hidden ?

I just asked Kasli (my flatmate) what's the aim of his life ?? He simply replied, to be happy.

The point is that he can stay happy all his life, but what purpose would it serve, and even if it had a purpose would that mean his life has no meaning after that purpose is full-filled.

I think that the purpose of his and all our lives is to keep each other busy and diverted from finding some truth which needs to stay hidden.

Sometimes it feels like, that we are trapped in a vicious experiment where we are the subjects and we are behaving just as the experimenter wants us to behave. That entity who is experimenting designed the world in such a way that it forms a deadly cycle which traps our mind and stops us from recognizing that all this is just an experiment.

Just imagine the diversions he created, to keep us busy.

The first diversion which he introduced is "Hunger". This is the most powerful diversion. This factor governs most of the things of this world. Starting right from animals to humans. Most of the animal behaviour and the human behaviour is because we are trapped in this cycle called the food chain.

What would the animals do if they do not feel hunger ??

Or what would happen to humans if they do not feel hunger ??

Will we still work if there was no hunger ??

The second powerful diversion is called "Love" or "Emotions".

All animals (including us) take care of our kids. Why ??

1. The kids would die of "Hunger" if they are not taken care of.

2. Why do parents worry if the child lived or died. Its because they have some "Love" or "Emotions" for their kids.

So we see that only "Hunger" was not sufficient to drive this world. If "Emotions" were not introduced then this world (the experiment) would not have flourished. The experiment would have come to an end since all would die young.

Even as people grow the second diversion "Emotions" drives them through their lives.

There are lot of other diversions, but the point is not discuss the diversions. We need to find out what is the aim of this experiment. And what would we be doing if we are not a part of this experiment ??

Whats the probability that i will complete this post in the next one hour...

Well.. lets start with the definition of probability...

Probability is the ratio of the number of favorable events divided by the total number of events in the sample space.

To calculate the probability of me completeing this post (the favorable event) , i have to first count the events in the entire sample space.

So the question is that if i do not complete this post then what all things i can do in the next one hour ??

Lets begin by telling you the time and the environment around me at this time ....

The time is around 8:13 PM now..... The radio is playing an old song.. (Woh mainnu pyar...

have to leave now.. .... going out with Shantanuu......

The probability does not matter now... :-)

This surely isn't the theory of relativity....

I am trying to compare a human being with a two storeyed building.

First, i will give a view of the building and then map the building to the human behaviour.

Imagine,

A 2 storeyed building, in which there is a top floor and a middle floor. The point to note over here is that there is no ground floor. This means that the middle floor is suspened in the air ( wierd but lets assume for now). Both the floors have dorrs and windows.

So this is the picture of the entire building which i am going to compare to a human being.

Mappings :
Top Floor ==> Mind
Middle Floor ==> Heart
Doors and Windows ==> Visibility to the outer world.
The absence of group floor ==> confidence level


The Theory ---

Top Floor --
The top foor of the building represents the mind of a person. Now the top floor can be empty or full and the windows and doors can be open or closed. The windows signifies whether the outer world can see the inside of your floor or not, i.e. what an external person will see.

Lets device a truth table to see the various personalities we can derive from this.

Sno	Occupancy of Top Floor	Doors and Windows	Meaning
T1	Full	Open	The person is intelligent and at the same time the world can see and appreciate his intelligence.
T2	Full	Closed	The person is intelligent, but the world does not reconize his intelligence.
T3	Empty	Open	The person is not intelligent enough and the world knows it too !!!
T4	Empty	Closed	The person is not intelligent , but he is able to hide it from the external world.

So these are the four basic types of categories. There can be more based on the partial occupancy and partial opening of doors, which is the actual scenario in real life. But for basic understanding i am just categorizing the extreme cases.

The middle floor ---

The middle floor is not categorized on the basis of occupancy. It is categorized on the basis of the cleanliness and neatness of the floor. Again the doors and windows play the same role here as in the top floor. Again the extreme categories possible here are :

Sno	Cleanliness of the Middle Floor	Doors and Windows	Meaning
S1	Clean	Open	The person is very good at heart and the people around him know that.
S2	Clean	Closed	The person is very good at heart, but the people around him cannot see the goodness of his heart and have a suspicious view on him
S3	Untidy/Dirty	Open	The person is black at heart, and the people around him know that.
S4	Untidy/Dirty	Closed	Who have a black heart and the people around them do not know that. They trust him.

In real life scenarios, again people generally fall inbetween these extremes. That can be portrayed by the partial cleanliness and partial opening of windows.

The Absence of the ground floor ---

The absence of the ground floor, and the building suspended in mid air signifies the amount of overconfidence or air the person has. This can be measured by the gap between the ground and the middle floor.

This again can be categorised using the following table :

Sno	distance between the ground and middle floor	Meaning
M1	+ ve	The person thinks highly about himself to the extent that he floats in air. (This shows overconfidence.
M2	0	The person is full of confidence and identifies his capabilities and weakness. Is not over confident.
M1	- ve	The person is under confident about his abilities and has a "i cannot do it" feeling for himself.

So these were the basic building blocks of my theory. Based on these extreme categories, the analysis of the combination of these categories become even more interesting.

There can be 4 X 4 X 3 = 48 distinct categories (leaving out the partial categories)


Okie.. enough for today ...........(I think i am going mad.... gosh.. what am i doing .... !!!!)